When I write this I am sitting on an airplane from Sweden to Switzerland after having spent a bit less than 48 hours in one of the places where I really feel at home on this beautiful planet, the island of Gotland. My amazing colleague Anna was with me. It was a business trip, a business trip that seemed everything else but that. I was there with a dear friend with whom I share values and visions. Who wants to change things. Who is curious. Who just like me just loves life! Before writing this I was reading the conversation me and Anders had when we got to know each other four years ago and found this section, written on 26 December 2012:
Anders: I know that all of us have our own way of finding our way ”home”.
Johanna: I want to find my way home to myself.
Anders: When we reach a certain level of consciousness it will be impossible to return to unconsciousness.
Johanna: As far as possible, I want to act based on my inner will and not based on the norms and rules that society is built upon and that I am impacted by every day, consciously or unconsciously.
Anders: Everyone who has done that will in their own small setting have an impact on lots and lots of people.
Johanna: The small world might be the greatest one. Because the small world is truly rich.
These lines articulate what I am filled by right now; I am on my way to finding my way home and I have begun making choice based on what I know instead of what my mother, father, brother, relatives or society claim to know. I choose based on what I know! Is it always easy? No, but it becomes easier and easier as I truly realize that I do not need the approval of anyone else. Do people sometimes judge me? Yes. Is that ok? Yes. Is that always my first reaction when I sense that someone is judging me? No, but increasingly more often. More than a few persons probably thought I was crazy when I made the choice last summer to run a small touristic facility at Gotland; ”But what will happen to your CAREER?” I am quite sure that some thought I was about to ”throw away” everything I had built up.